Tough Day

July 5 is such a tough day.  Two years ago on this day, I miscarried my baby.  There has not been a single day since it happened, that I haven't thought about it.  Some days are easier than others, but some days, like today, are tough.  I know there's nothing I could have done but I still go over it and over it, thinking of things I could have done differently.  I've been on the verge of tears all day.  I tried to stay busy all day but the thoughts never go away.  I'm also letting things bother me that I shouldn't.  People make comments about things and they may not realize they have said something that hurts others feelings, but they do.  Maybe I'm a little more sensitive today, or a little more emotional, and that's why I'm bothered so much.  Maybe it's because I'm irritated with myself for not telling people that they've hurt my feelings.  Or maybe it really was a crummy thing to say and the feelings I'm having are justified.  Whatever it is, I'm the type of person who, most times, will just sit with it, and not say anything because I'd rather do that than hurt someone back.  Maybe I should just call it a day and try to start fresh tomorrow.