Love and Loss

It's amazing how a person can feel so much  love and so much hurt all at once.  As I sit here and watch my beautiful daughter dancing around, singing made up songs and my handsome new son sleeping so peacefully in his swing, I am filled with so much love for them.  I also feel a lot of hurt and sadness.  One year ago today, we lost a baby we never got the chance to know.  There is not a single day that I have not thought about my sweet angel.  I know, in my heart, that I will get to meet my sweet angel someday but that doesn't ease the pain.  I didn't know what to expect, as some days are easier than others, but today is proving to be rougher than I imagined.  Thank goodness for my wonderful husband and beautiful children who will help me get through this.

My Angel Baby

To the baby that I carried

But never seen your eyes

Or tell you how much I loved you

Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten

The excitement we had for your coming.

When I realized I'd never hold you,

The feeling I had was numbing.

My angel baby is who you are.

My angel baby you'll always be.

Your loving memory will live in my heart

So you will always be right here with me.

~Lori Jager